Imagining what ‘frequency’ I want right now, what I want. Seeing.. sort of like nucleotides floating around, a door of light, dinosaurs in party hats. They say you can’t have your cake and eat it too, but in order to believe this, it may serve you to question, who is ‘They’? also, it serves to ask, do you even want your cake? If you don’t want it, then you can have it for a while. And if you want it, then eat it! Then it’s inside you, and it’s yours in a different way. Why on earth would you want a bilocating cake? Actually, that’d be pretty neat. Or a cloned cake. OMG CAKE CLONE. Also, while you’re eating it, you do still have some of it, unless it’s the last bite. But I know what ‘They’ mean. This ominous, omnipresent ‘They’, who should always do more ‘they should really invent a better electron microscope that I can learn to use more quickly!’, who is always at fault, (maybe not, no examples are coming to mind), who is always watching ‘they’re…..’, well, my example bank is dry at the moment. No funds, no waters flow through my thoughts on they. Maybe it’s because there IS NO THEY. But that’s a bit of a tangent from cake. And cake, not gonna lie, (even if it’s a lie) is what’s important here. You can’t have your cake and eat it too, the idea, the horrible idea, is that you are inevitably displaced from your object of desire. If you have it, if you control it, you can’t fully experience it. If you do choose to experience it, you can’t control it, you can’t own it, you can’t have it. Maybe it means something better than this, but I don’t really care to google it up right now. My interpretation is that you MUST have your cake in order to eat it. Because it’s about more than the cake itself. It’s about feeling the cake before it meets your taste buds, (‘we’re taste buds, we like how each other taste and are now buds’), it’s about allowing yourself to have it and believing you deserve it and being able to imagine what the essence the cake-eating experience provides for you. And knowing what it means for you! Honesty I’m not sure if I know what I’m saying, I don’t want to sound preachy or coachy even but I am just big on people getting what they want. With gratitude and a good attitude I don’t think there are much limitations on what we can have.
Desire…. The story of Chanukah, which I will embellish right now because frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn if it’s not hurting anybody and this ain’t an essay on historical events or a quest for truth in that field, though this should still aim for accuracy but god damn ok. CHANUKAH: menorah, you’ve probably seen them things (ripping off the friend’s writing style again, find him) needed oil to burnnnnnn. The miracle, post lots of wars and deaths and fighting for land and rights and freedom, freedom, freedom, was that the oil was only rationally sufficient for one day? Or two the most. Not many. BUT THE MENORAH, WITH ITS LIMITED SUPPLY OF OIL, burned for 8 days.
It’s the second night of Chanukah, and also Thanksgiving in America. I think it’s a good time to honor that spirit of gratitude, and of the experience of being resourceful and how we could do a LOT with what we already have. Don’t love my tone right now, a bit pereachy. Peachy. Georgia state fruit!
But yes. Combine the idea that a little can go a long way (- the factors of divine intervention and war and chosen peoples?), with the idea that it is wise and good to give thanks (-facades of intercultural unity built over blood-tainted stories of murder and stuff), and we are met with the concept that gratitude actually is a force, not only a passive good feeling thing one should do, but an energy that attracts more of what you are grateful for. Maybe them macabeahs, jewish warriors who found that menorah, were thankful, so thankful for their victory that the oil burned, just kept burning, in response. I guess, we can be thankful for the cake we already have, and as we eat it, know that we can have as much as we like.